My Favorite Mistake

I don't have to say that I love you ... 
coz' I said it many times before .... 
coz' I knew that you knew 
that our love is never ended ..... 

I don't have to say that I'll forget you 
coz' you know that You always be here in my heart 
coz' nothing in this world can makes me forget you .... 
we are connected to each other by destiny .... 

I don't have to say that I am sorry 
but I feel that way forever 
but I have to say that I am .....
we just too complicated to be together ...

I have to choose what I have to 
not because I don't want you 
not because I don't love you .... 
but sometimes love just ain't enough ... 

I might be sorry for this things 
even still I have choice when I don't 
even life goes on when I slept 
I just have to let it go .....

I hope life treats you kind ....
like I hope mine too ... 
like what I always pray for you 

and no matter what it takes ...

I may regret the way we ended 
but I will never regret what we had 
but I will never forget the memories 
because you are my favorite mistake .... 

----------- sugarflo 2009 ------------------

Things about love

Since I knew love ...
it changes a lot of things in my life
it prove something that I can't see ...
it's just by faith and faith alone ...

Since I taste the tears of love,
it teached me how to be weak
it gave me strength when I was crying
it's just ironic to feel ...

Since I grew up...,
I never get enough
I never really understand
what suppose to be done
to have a love of my life ?

I am still here ...
and alone ...

Have u ever ??

Have u ever said that u have no choice ?
Destiny brought u here with hard and difficult times....
Have u ? coz.. I did..

Have u ever thought why God doesn't care to ur pray ?
Scratch ur heart and ur soul so deep with pain and misery ....
Have u ? coz... I did too.

Have u ever felt always wrong and being a loser ?
Walking the sad story that has no ending ....
Have u ? coz... I did..

Then... I realize that I was wrong...
It's just the way to make me the way I am now...!
It created me today....in a good way....

I am nothing

I am nobody....
I am just a slave of my own fate.....
I am just a prisoner of my dreams
I am just nothing.....

I am just a human .....
who always try to be strong...
who always keep being brave....
...try to be a hero...

I am a Goddess.....
and I have two broken wings....
then I am not immortal.....
....and sure...I am just a dreamer....

I am just a woman....
who has nothing but faith ...

Poem For You

I don't want to write another poem about you....
Coz' I have a thousand poem about u before....
coz' you are so absurd
and everything about you remind me of tears...

I don't have to write another poem about you...
Coz' I have to erase the past....
and I don't have that power....
not even God can change the past .....

I don't need to write another poem about you
Coz' words it will never be enough for you
Coz what we are too complicated to describe....
and poem will never change the truth between us....

One thing for sure....
I love you forever ....no matter what....
and I don't have to write a poem for you....

Children ...

Being old is must...., being mature is a choice ....

Child is a gift.
Child can change the way we are ....
Being better or sometime worse ...

Child is a mystery.
Sometime we hope they bring a guidebook
when they were born ....
so we can read it ....
when we have trouble with them ...

Child is a journey.
We feel like it never ended
to feed them with care and love
They grow up so fast and....
it's just a beginning of new journey ...

Child is immortal.
Eventhough when they are grow up enough
they never really are ...
It's not them who need us ...
but we still need them arround ....,sometime.

Child is a drug.
They can make us fly or down
They can make us lose our mind
They can make us totally insane ....

Child is a mirror.
They can reflect ourself in a goodways or badways
sometime, we just try to deny ...
but we just have to realize
that they don't grow up alone ...
we involved to make the way they are ...

Child is a sacred pray,
But not all pray have the answer ...
so....just keep it that way
because child is only a human being ...
like us .....

Child is not perfect,
sometime we hope too much
and we get dissapointed
because our hope ....
not because of them .....

I have a dream ....

I have a dream .....
and I know everybody does ....
I just want to share mine ...
maybe it could make you understand ...
about dream itself .....

I have a dream ....
and sometime I forget
I reach out another dream
while my dream is not over yet
I must be so naive ....

I have a dream ...
and I sing a sad song
remain me to my dreams ...
maybe I can't get what I want
about dream itself ....

I have a dream ...
and I am not a dreamer ...
I try so hard ....
to make my dreams come true ...
I must be so tired ....

I have a dream ....
and I know everybody does ....
I just wondering ....
what kind of dream you have ?
and what kind of life you get?
about dream itself .....

I have a dream...,
and I will have another dreams
It doesn't matter now ....
cause life is not a dream ...
but dream is a part of life ....

Maybe....

Everything about you is only maybe....
all the fact that I have is only a dream now...
but things will happen when we believe ...
that's why i believe in you ...

Every single words that you said is maybe true ...
all the picture about you could be fake ...
but seeing is believing ....
that's why I want to be with you ...

Everyone may become a dreamer ....
and happiness is belong to a brave one ...
but for so long I became a coward ...
that's why you wake me up ...

Everything can goes wrong ....
and sometimes I am just to blind to see
but then you come into my life ....
that's why you open my blind eyes ...

Every heart has it's own reason to trust
and everyone has their own secret ...
but this time I will not judge you ...
for something that only maybe ....

Strength & Weakness

We can't erase the past .....
but we can learn to take it as a lesson
eventhough we regret it .....
but we can't deny the blame ....

We can say that we are strong
but strong people never ask why ....
eventhough we have an excuse ....
but we never find a good reason ....

We lived our life .....
The past and present .....
We judged ourself .....
yesterday and today .....

We can be a better person ...
but we can't change the way we were ...
no matter how hard we tried
but we just have to accept our weakness ...

We did wrong things ....
but it became mistakes .....
if it just make us more weak ....
and it become lesson ....
if it makes us stronger .....

Just choose the path ....
choose your flame .....
and be someone who can take the risk ...
to make you a better human being .....
not a slave of your weakness .....

Wondering Why ?

I have been in so many places ....
I have known so many people ...
I have tried so many things ....
but there are always something new in life ....

I never felt really boring ....
I never felt really tired ....
I never felt old .....
and I'm still the same .....

I saw people crying ...
I saw people laughing ....
jelousing, scared, caring and boring ...
then I really want to share a thought ...

Why we can't be just the way we are ....
without judging anyone and trying to be perfect
Why we can't be just a simple human ....
without have complicated life ....and complicated thought ...

One thing I always do ....
I am just wondering ....why ?

We Are The Hero of Our Own Story

I am an angel to my children ....

I am a fairy to my friends ...
you can judge me ...

but you can't change the way I am !

I am an evil to my enemy ...

I am a nightmare for my past ....
you can hate me .....,

but you can't blame me for being strong !

I am a hero for my own life ....

I am a warrior of my own fate, 

you can hurt me .....,  

but you can't take what I deserve !

I am ....what I am ...

Ineed to be hated .....

you can hope me to fail, 

but you can't stop me to move on !

I'll do my best .....
eventhough my best isn't always enough ......